Am I happy?

Right now? I dunno. I've been thinking about this a lot over the past few weeks and its largely because I'm terrified of the next phase of my life.  A phase that is rapidly sneaking up on me.  Do I go to graduate school or do I join the workforce.

I think that choice is pretty easy. I know I want to teach, so its off to graduate school for me.  What's really terrifying me is going to Purdue for another 2 years and realizing that nothing's really the same, what with many of my good friend's having graduated, or it's too much of the same given that I know so many upper class men and graduate students here. Whatever it is, I've started my application because Purdue has without a doubt the best propulsion lab in the country.

Life's otherwise really enjoyable right now. Despite having some pain in the ass classes to get through, I really enjoy what I'm studying and its really enjoyable to use the knowledge I've gained first hand.  Also, as I'm typing this my right hand has transitioned from hunting and pecking for the first time since like 3rd grade typing class and its freaking me out.  That'll be something to practice later this week when I have more time.  Wow, it feels so cool though.

Long story short, I'm more content than happy. I've got stuff to work through, I'm enjoying each day, but I'm not in place mentally or physically (lol, I've got a marathon to train for in October) that I want to be. Soon though :)

Summer soon

It's summer soon and I finally have my first internship. I can't wait to work for Virgin Galactic, but at the same time I'm not ready for this year to end. Orientation stuff for next year's incoming class is just picking up and I absolutely adore my team leaders. They're just warming up to each other, but I can tell that they're going to be a great group. I hope my guts right and not being ruled by unbridled optimism. I guess I'm always surprised when people put up with me, so it's no surprise that my orientation buddies continue to wow me. They're kind and I've grown to trust them as well as any friend I've ever had. I guess it's an insecurity, but I worry that we won't hang out next year. That'd suck.

Still, there's no reason to stress about things that haven't happened, especially when I can still make an effort to avoid it. Things I should be stressing about are the homeworks I have due next week or how I'm going to manage my travel to and from California this summer.

Until next time...